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Hello everyone!

As you've noticed each time I've been attempting to come out of hiatus I've fallen right back into it a few weeks after. There is a reason for this. For about 3 years now I have been superbly confused on what direction to take my life in. I know I can draw. I know I can drum. I know I can write. And I know with laserfocus dedication I could go somewhere with either of those options. So that's what I've been doing. Pedaling back and forth while struggling to mentally accept the fact I still need side-education for a secure profession.

I got into studying interior works (both repair/renovation and decorative) so it holds my interest at least. After the first month I'm not physically and mentally exhausted after each school day so I am adjusting. And I find myself with excess time given my partner is away working at sea and most of my friends are very busy with their own lives. More importantly, I find myseld with excess energy.

You may have noticed that I've started posting again given for once I stumbled on Inktober right on time. So that has fired me up a lot. I feel I'm exceeding myself every single day in some way and the feeling is wonderful. I took my first step back to the art focus and finally created an artist page on facebook-
( www.facebook.com/AnnabelKArts )
-so I keep posting daily and already see some people have taken an interest in possibly commissioning me. It's been livening me up a lot and restoring incentive in myself.

Given a few failures on the way the last 3 years, I've been spectacularly afraid of wasting time. And that overthinking paralized me and thus wasted my time even more. That's why I haven't been able to decide towards definite actions. It took a proper verbal metaphorical slap in the face from my partner to finally snap me out of it. I still fall back to overthinking from time to time, but the fact I dared to create the page finally is a huge step forward to me. 

I'm slowly coming back from being afraid and Inktober is a big part of it.
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Hey! Wonderful afternoon to all!

It seems I have been able to hold some activity for real this time. That's a good sign in my book I guess. Although since I do not posess a scanner and my PC is absolutely great at overheating, Ive been submitting my artwork from my phone.

I think sometime in the near future I shall take my computer back to use and fix the levels of most of my latest traditional deviations.

Anyway honestly I am thrilled to be drawing again and to be honest, a good dream of mine is to illustrate a children's book. Someone told me since I do lots of children-poetry around holidays I should publish something with my own illustrations.

Honestly I'd love to do that but at the same time I am very intimidated by the process. I don't know why it has never occured to me to specifically write for children...

And would the stores take to sell the books? What are the criterias for it? What is the process? How to ignite interest? So many questions...
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ANOTHER update

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Hello! Well, yet again it's been an embarrasingly long time between updates as life has swept me along. Honestly. So many changes, so many new things, my life is absolutely changed from what it was last year.

Good news is, things have slowed down. Last year was so hectic with no rest, Ive spent the better part of 2017 so far recuperating from all of it. And I've begun actively drawing again which I will submit soon.

Long story short I got swept up in a business project, burned out but still succeeded enough to be pleased myself in retrospect, I dropped uni in favour of the project. Noe dropped out of the project as I'm pursuing my career in tour guiding. So far still working as a giftwrapper but I'm not overswampimg myself anymore.

Also the cat I got, Juss, has been an absolute wonderful adorable rascal.

How are you?
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Heya~! :wave:

:rose: Oh uhm wow, I have not been on dA for a looong time. My last journal is from September. Well to be honest I haven't done too much drawing either, overworking myself a bit. Lately I've somewhat gotten back to it, drawing is a passion for a reason, I'll get to that in the next point. A lot of things have happened, being a full time university student along with my job takes up quite the time. Of course, at least it's a bit easier on me since I changed jobs in December. Instead of working the popcorn machines, I'm a professional giftwrapper now who's occasionally in a store that sells anything from beautiful chandeliers to amber soaps. Kinda fancy crafty stuff. So yeah, I'm also adopting a cat tomorrow and I'm super excite as he is my first pet that is bigger than a bird.

:rose: About drawing. I said I was gettin back to it. That in the form of a very big poster with a wild sea and a 17th century ship. I am doing it with markers and stylizing it kind of like woodcut technique. I have never done this before so it's very easy for me to screw it up. So this I do when I have some free time. I know I need to work on some commissions and restart others since my hard drive was wiped. *sighs*

Well, I intend to get to them. I know it's been embarrassingly long but from this point onward I'm switching back to traditional medium unless it's old MSPaint. Digital exhasperates me way too quickly. The deviations I can upload right now, their quality isn't the best at the moment, but maybe something to show nonetheless.

How have all of you been?
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Heya~! :wave:

Maple Leaf So a brief update again how I've been. Artsy things first. I do not have a lot of time, I am working and have a part time (almost full time) job aside school. So I'm afraid I'll have to call out a hiatus, because when I do that, that usually motivates me to come out of it. I don't like the state of hiatus but I need to get over myself. If by the end of September I haven't delivered my points commission, I'll return the points. 

Maple Leaf A bit about what's been up with me. Managing life on my own, have found a job.  I now work at the cinema and right now 5th workday in a row. Why such a rough schedule? Because on the weekends (except from this one) I have school practices. This weekend I'm going on an expedition on building archaeology. That means digging. And since they are church grounds, there is a possibility to stumble on a skeleton or two. 

Also for school I'm in a hurry with technical drawing, that I have been avoiding with fiery passion.
Kanae Avoiding Seiya Icon

So I'm not allowing myself any perks (free movies or swimming) that my work provides me until I have finished my blueprints. I'm on the nick of the deadline and I have work in the evening as well. Heheh, guess who's not sleeping today.
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